My Revelation

I would love to say this “blog thing” is becoming more comfortable, and easy, but it is not. I know I am contributing to the problem by harping on it. A venture like this is no easy feat. I have hopped around in my mind, and created a thousand scenarios on how this should play out, and the approach to which I should take to share my story. Then I had this great revelation. It doesn’t have to be perfect, and it doesn’t have to be linear. The story should unfold naturally, and it is ok to incorporate the lessons I am still learning as the days, and weeks go by. The one promise I will keep to you, and to myself is to keep showing up. I will post every week like I said I would. I know that is what is necessary. I could start skipping weeks, and entries, but that would be the easy thing to do. I could post only when I feel really good about what I have written, but that wouldn’t be authentic. I just recently figured out what TBH meant on Instagram LOL. So to be honest I am an in a weird place right now. I keep saying I feel this “life shift,”happening. What is the word for when all the plates of the Earth started shifting? Shredz, or my sister would know the answer to this question. Actually my niece Madison would as well. Anyway, that’s what it feels like. Like every area in my life is cracking, and moving. It is so UNCOMFORTABLE. The strange part about it all is that I know I need to sit with this. I know this feeling is necessary. I know that this is where great life lessons are learned.

On our way to DC this Saturday Shredz made a great point about my writing. She said, “I can tell when you feel pressured to write because you ramble.” She is right. I was so unhappy with the entry I posted last week. It was rushed, and I was exhausted towards the end. I was in fact rambling. I always write better in the earliest hours of the day, and last week I finished up the blog late at night. My sister found it funny, but she is biased, and tells me I am the funniest person on Earth. I love her for this, but I was less than satisfied when I woke up Monday. I was so overwhelmed by it that I did in fact consider quitting. I could quit. It would be easy to quit. I could come up with a million reasons to just stop writing, and walk away. Trust me when I say it is more tempting than you can imagine. I have quit a lot of things in my life, but this is not going to be one of them, because I know that I need to keep going. I just need to sit with this discomfort. I was tempted to take down the post from last week, but I am going to leave it there as a reminder to myself. I will use it to remind myself to prioritize the things in life that are important not only to myself, but to those around me.

This week I challenge us all to prioritize the things in life that make us, and the world a better place. Don’t sit on something and wait for it to be comfortable. I will make a promise to you all. I will start making time each day to write so that each entry will be the best I can give you. I will stop putting this on the back burner, and I will man up (woman up in this case lol) by making the blog a top priority.

“It’s not about having time. It’s about making time.” Anonymous

To Be Continued……

All My Love,

Reenie

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