December 29, 2019
Live. Laugh. Love
Tis the season!! Christmas has come and gone, and as my weekly readers have realized I haven’t posted since Dec 8th. I’d love to give a clear cut reason, but I don’t have one. I could say I haven’t had time, but as one who truly believes we always have time for what matters…that would be a lie. While this time of year always seems to go by in a flash, I could have made time. I just didn’t make the blog a priority. So, here I am with no excuses. This will be the last blog post of 2019. Wow! I am ending the year with my twenty-first post, and 21 is actually my favorite number. I don’t know how the rest of you choose your favorite number, but ever since I was a kid I wanted to be twenty-one! Are you sensing a theme here? Twenty-one is the number I always associated with being an adult, and in my head as being completely free.
Anytime I get some feedback about the blog I go back, and read the particular post to which the person is referring. I have told you all that I forget a lot of stuff? LOL. It actually workouts for the benefit of the readers because I don’t want to reiterate material I have already mentioned. A theme I have really noticed in the blog is freedom. As you spend more time on your journey, and if you take the time to really get to know yourself you will notice certain themes in your own life. Did I want to be free or what? I have talked before about zodiac signs and being an Aquarius woman. I have also mentioned that money was and is freedom to me. Driving meant freedom. Traveling is freedom. The discipline I have in my life is freedom. And last, but not least, my faith is freedom. If I sense that something gives me more freedom then I am bound to go after it.
When asked to elaborate on my success I truly realized thatI was always on the hunt for freedom, not money. Money is attached to the freedom I long for, and that is my only reason for wanting it in the first place. You must give credit where credit is due, and without Eric, I would never have ventured out of my comfort zone at THAT TIME. That is not to say I NEVER would have, but the financial inadequacy pushed me to that place much sooner. At this time, I would like to invite you to look at the people, and events in your life that caused you pain. Can you see any good that they have brought you? I love playing connect the dots in my life. I have noticed a pattern with myself. Any time I took my hurt, turned it over to God, and allowed myself to use it for inner fuel so many AMAZING things happened.
The path hasn’t been easy. I am not really sure what you see when you look at me. I don’t know if we know each other IRL (that’s what the young kids say for In Real Life hahaha) if you follow me on IG, or if you only know me through the blog, but I can tell you this, what you see is only a small piece of the person. It is this way for everyone. Think of how long it has taken you to know yourself, and imagine how much time it takes to actually know someone else. That is why I am always harping on spending the time it takes to know yourself. Awhile back I mentioned handling big things with much peace, but freaking out when I did something dumb like spill oatmeal (what a psycho haha.) I hated that about myself, and so I worked to change it. I spilled an egg earlier, and was pleasantly surprised when I simply cleaned it up with no reaction. Big, or small you can change.
Right now you are in a certain place in your life. Some of you are experiencing what you would feel as great “successes,” and some of you are experiencing pain, loss, and feelings of great discomfort. There is a reason that they say life is a roller coaster. It will always be full of ups and downs. It will be filled with wins, and losses. It will be filled with love, laughter, hope, freedom, and peace. It will be filled with pain, tears, sadness, anxiety, and discomfort. This is where my faith comes in. I hope if you don’t believe in God that these paragraphs don’t make you want to leave the blog. The whole point of my writing is to simply show you how I got to where I am today, and to leave my faith out would mean leaving out the LARGEST part of who I am. I don’t define being a “successful woman” the way most people do. I do agree I am successful, and it is in this blog that I tell you why. Money plays a role, but that role is small. When it comes to money I am successful because I don’t rely on anyone else to support me, or pay my bills. Money gives me the freedom to travel to see the world, and the people I love. Money has given me the opportunity to be as generous as possible to the poor, and those I care about. Money bought me my house. My house has a special place in my life, and I will get into that later. My career has brought me financial success, but above this it has given me the opportunity to help physicians save the lives of thousands of people, and in turn given so much happiness to the families who have more time with them. A job in medical sales is not as glamorous as you might think, and again I will get more into this at a later date. I am successful, because I am disciplined. People see the rigidity that comes with bodybuilding as something to be frowned upon, but aside from God it is the thing in my life that has made me the strongest, and brought me to some of the women who understand me the best. Last, but certainly not least, my faith has made me successful. Some may ask how is that so? It may be hard for everyone to understand this, but true success to me is to live each day as though it is my last, always trust in God’s plan for me, love people with no strings attached, never doubt that God loves me even when I am not getting my way, put other people first, praise God always even when I don’t understand what in the actual heck He is doing hahaha, laugh everyday even in the midst of great sorrow, live in a state of peace free from anxiety, and to always be proud of who I am, and where I come from. My past was messy, and I am grateful because it has given me a non-judgmental heart. My present is much different than what society says it should be, and I am grateful because it means I can help women who choose to do things differently. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I do know what today holds. Today holds the chance to do things better, and to make a difference in someone else’s life. It is a Saturday, so today will most likely hold the small success of making someone here laugh, but even if on earth that success seems small in heaven; I like to think everyone up there gets to laugh,too.
This may not be the expected answer when I was asked to elaborate on my success, but this is my truth. I was also asked to talk about self-doubt, and I will get into that in the next post.
“Freedom is the oxygen of the soul.” – Moshe Dayan
To Be Continued……
All My Love,
Reenie