Another Year

They say it's your birthday da da da da. That song has been in my head for two days. Anyone that knows me well knows that I love my birthday! I cannot understand why anyone would not like a day that celebrates that they came into the world. It is a whole day dedicated to your life. Life is such a gift, and to be given an opportunity to live another year is so special. I always thank God for letting me live another year on each birthday that I get to celebrate. I also always call my mom to thank her for carrying me, and deciding that I was worth having! We are each blessed with our own unique "birth" story. Today I celebrate my 38th birthday! I must admit in my head I am still in my twenties. I certainly don't feel 38, and thanks to a little hair dye, botox, and staying out of the sun I am doing my best to preserve my youth LOL. Don't judge me it is all preventative care hahaha.

Like most of you I have been through some shit in my life. Some we have discussed already in past blogs, and some we will speak about in the future. Over the years I have found certain strategies that have helped me stay mentally strong, and happy even in the midst of my greatest sorrows. One of these strategies is to write myself letters. I know I know I am weird, but I like going back and reading what I wrote years later. So in today's post I am sharing what I wrote to myself as my 35th year of life was coming to a close.

"My goal for my 36th year is to be vulnerable and love without condition as Jesus did and does for me. I’m not going to “fear” feelings. I know my strength will forever lie in God’s hands alone. I will trust in his plan for my life and use every struggle as the opportunity to grow stronger, physically, mentally & emotionally. I will nurture the relationships in my life and use the past as a lesson, & not something that can drag me down. I will remind myself that it is the devil that breeds self doubt.

I will work diligently everyday to grow stronger in my faith and walk towards whatever path God leads me down. When my relationship with him is not at its strongest I will work even harder at it. I will practice gratitude, not only daily but every hour of every day. I will recognize that his timing is different then my own & I will use the grace he gives me to pass on strength to others.

I pray that I meet a man to walk with on this journey, but know that if that is not in the cards for me I will keep on being happy.

Trusting in God at times is beyond difficult but any pain, any sorrow, any time you stumble he will give you a gift of finding beauty in it all. Life is beautiful and even a rose has thorns."

Each, and every year we are granted the opportunity to become better, stronger versions of ourselves. Every year we can choose to make this world a better, brighter place. Every year is going to have pain, heartache, and struggles, but every year is a gift. I invite you this year to celebrate. I challenge us to celebrate our birthday like we never have before, because not everyone makes it to the year you are celebrating, or I am celebrating.

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"She loved life, and it loved her right back." Anonymous

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To Be Continued……

All My Love,

Reenie

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